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A couple of sixteen-year-old
sweethearts out for a late-evening walk around the lake. They had all
the summer ahead of them, and no time to keep. They stopped for a
long kiss on the boardwalk. Maybe it was a very long kiss, because
somehow night fell, just then, and as they carried on along the
trail, the forest closed around them and they were enveloped in
darkness. He reached for her hand and she felt responsible – after
all, this island was her home, and she should know the way back even
with her eyes closed. Which they may as well have been, for all that
she could see. She slowed the pace. She felt her boyfriend's arm on
one side, the springy root trail beneath her, and to her left, a
small log.
Oh! Wait! The trail builders had
recently put these logs here, and she was sure they were all on the
uphill side of the trail! She must have led him to the wrong side of
the log! Thankful for the night concealing her blush of
embarrassment, she said, “Just step over this little log, here...”
and she did – into mid-air. Well, the mid-air part was a fraction
of a second long, before she crumpled down past roots and stones and
salal, came to rest on the ground and clambered quickly to stand
again – this time aware of his knee in front of her face, as he
stood there on the path, confused.
“Um. Actually not that way.” He
helped her back up, never laughing at her, and thankfully never
noticing the scrapes on her legs that she felt swelling up as they
walked, this time much more slowly, along the trail. She closed her
eyes. Given the fresh opportunity to be lost in her own environment,
she used her free hand to navigate, feeling about at the warm summer
air, the leaves, branches, and trunks as they went by. She discovered
that she recognized some of the trees. She discovered that she knew
by the change in slope that they were closer to the road, and by the
smell of water that they were nearing the gravel spit. She became
attuned to her senses in a way to which she wasn't accustomed, and
delighted in the sound of her boyfriend's feet on the ground, the
feeling of the breeze passing between their arms, and the glimpses of
light as they neared the open alder forest. She loved the smell of
the forest floor.
That was me, twenty-three years ago. I
remember this often, and now try to make a habit of falling – at
least metaphorically – off the beaten path. After all, falling
lacks purpose, so the places I find myself are so much more
surprising.
Last week, walking on the south side of
the island, I picked my way carefully between thigh-deep snarls of
blackberries toward the parched and crumbling moss deserts of the dry
hillside. Even the blackberries were drying up, their vines like
desperate brittle arms, reaching out to grab my clothing. I was so
focused on the area immediately around my ankles, that I came
unexpectedly upon a stand of cattails – a little marsh tucked into
the rocks. What? I looked around: Pines, Douglas Fir,
yellowing grass, moss and bracken, some cedars approaching death as
their roots sought water in the dusty ground; insects resting on the
brown-stemmed flowers. And the little stand of cattail. Their roots
found some hidden source of water in the fold of the bedrock.
I looked up and discovered I was so far
off the trail as to have to follow my senses back through the blazing
white sun. So I stood and listened. Crowned sparrows called from
various perches and the wind whipped the foxgloves so that they
flopped against each other now and then. The grass whispered and my
feet crunched the dried plants on my way home. I felt the stinging
heat of the sun. Each of these experiences was a gift, like falling
off a trail on a dark night. It is a gift just to give ourselves
opportunities to discover.
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